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I'm tired, I'm fed up with myself.
How i really wish i can throw away this heart together with this feeling.

No matter how hard i try to throw away this thought, i can't.
I'm not as perfect as her, I can't do anything for you like she do for you.
I can't give you anything like she give for you.
I'm way far behind from her.
I'm afraid that you will choose her in the end of time.

There's a lot of thing i want to shout out.
Can you please stop meeting her, can you please stop text her, can you please stop talk to her, can you please only look at me.
Can you please keep text me even you are with her, why you don't reply my text when you are with her.
Why do you lie ? why you delete her text ?
Do i ever cross your mind every time you are with her.

But i can't speak that out, i can't even tell you.
I can just silently smiling and comfort myself that everything will turns out fine.
Every night, every morning i wake up. The nightmare of you being with her haunt me just when i open my eyes.
This thoughts killing myself until the point i don't want to awake. I wish to keep sleeping and forget everything.

You tell me to drop that thoughts, how i wish that i can.
Its easy for you to say because you don't feel it, you're not the one that getting hurt before.

I keep myself as busy as i can, but every time i pause i still think of you.
are you with her ? what are you doing now ? are you doing fine ? how are you feeling now ?
who are you talking to now ? what are you thinking now ?

I love you so much until the point i'm afraid of myself will break down one day.
If only i can turn to heartless person, with no feeling, throw away everything i have for you.
If only i can feel no pain, no tears, no heartbreak, no sadness.

Quotes

- Sometimes you have to hurt other people feelings just to let them know how it hurts when they hurt yours.

- My stomach drops when I think about you are with someone else.

- Be a guy that become her reason to smile every morning, not her reason to cry every night.

- Don't say you miss me when it's your fault i'm gone.

- If she give you a second chance, she really loves you. Be a man and show her why she should keep you.

- If you really love a person, you wouldn't even think about cheating on them.

- Real man stay faithful, because they don't have time to look for another woman because they'are too busy for looking a new ways to love their own.

- when someone say they love you, you can't really feel it. But when they say they don't love you, you feel every ounce of it.

- you know that girl ?
that always forgave you ?
that always loved you ?
that always took you back ?
pretty soon, she will give up and find someone better.

- While you are ignoring her, someone is begging for her attention.

- Have you ever wanted to ask a question, but you didn't because your heart wouldn't able to handle the answer.

- Some guys just don't realize how much one little thing can hurt a girl.

- I'm sorry i get jealous and sad. It's only because there's a bigger chance of me losing you than you losing me.

- It's sad when you realize you aren't as important to someone as you thought you were.

- One of the hardest decision you will ever face is choosing whether to walk away or try harder.

Quote taken from across the internet.

Your love is nothing but a lie

I found a note with another name
You blow a kiss, but it just don't feel the same
Cause I can feel that you're gone
I can't bite my tongue forever
While you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories
But don't take me for a fool

You can tell me that there's nobody else
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know
Your love is just a lie
It's nothing but a lie

You look so innocent
How does it feel when you kiss when you know that i trust you
And do you think about me when she touch you?
Could you be more obscene?

So don't try to say you're sorry
Or try to make it right
Don't waste your breath because it's too late, it's too late.

You can tell me that there's nobody else
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know,
Your love is just a lie
It's nothing but a lie
You're nothing but a lie

You can tell me that there's nobody else
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know
Your love is just a lie
I know you're nothing but a lie
You're nothing but a lie

Your love is just a lie

Quoted from : simple plan - your love is just a lie lyrics

Memories

Memories, sweet yet bitter. Even if the people inside change, memories will still stay.

After a long long time has passed, I met you once again.
Our meeting, make me realize that something will remain unchanged even years has passed by.
All the memories we made together, full of smiles and tears are still warm in my memories.

8 years has been passed since the first day we have the feeling, are you still staying until now ?

Meeting you again brings both joy and sadness.

I'm glad to see you are doing fine, also a sadness of feeling sorry.

There's nothing I can said except " I'm sorry " and "Thank you"

For loving me so much, so long, even perhaps in the past i hurt you countless time

When you said "The feeling of being left by the one you love is not easy to forget"

I'm sorry for betraying your feeling. For leaving you when you need me most.

I'm sorry that not able to fight for our relationship more, I'm sorry for giving up too easily.

I'm sorry that the one that will accompany you through and stand by your side is not me.

There's a lot i want to say, but I can't find a word.

If that day, you say "No". will we still be together now ?

6 years of keeping you in my heart as the most important person.

That day, is never easy for both of us.

That countless nights i spend crying thinking that you no longer mine, thinking that i must let you go.

Thinking that one day you might be others.

It actually killing me inside, yet I got no choice.

Now, 2 and half years has passed since that day.

I finally found someone, that I wish I can stand beside him in wedding dress and spend our time together until our hair turns grey.

He is the most important people to me now.

I'm learning to fight for our relationship more, and I'm learning for not giving up so easily.

Even our new relationship is still a fresh, i wish I can carefully keep this buds to bloom into a beautiful flower one day.

You are now remain in my memories, but i can never thank you enough.

For everything you teach me, for everything you had done for me.

I wish you can find someone that you care the most, and she will walk down with you for the rest of your life.

I wish you a great happiness.

And your smile are still as mesmerizing as before, a very sweet smile that made me fall into you in the past.

I wish there's someone can forever keep your smile in your face.

Thank you and Goodbye

More than you'll ever know

Take my hand

We'll walk a while

We'll talk a while

Feel my love, that will always beside you

You're the only one, that I cherish more than anything

Think of me, and you'll know that I believe in you

There's always be, this precious time together

With every tears, no words I could ever say

A love for only you

I love you more than you'll ever know

I love you more than you'll ever see

More than my heart could ever show

For You. With Love, Me

Some people say Love is wonderful
Some people say Love give nothing but pain

For me, Love is you.
Every smiles, pain, tears and laughs.
The first time I met you that day, the very first day we went out, the very first day I held your hand.
I never thought you'll mean so much too me.

I wish, to always hold you close.
I wish, to always see you smile.
I wish, to always by your side to hug you when you feel sad.
I wish, to always be your everything.

Your smile that always mesmerized me.
The way you laugh that I always love to see.
Your gentle hug and pat that always warmth my heart.
Your shoulder and arms that always be my favorite place.

I pray to God every night, that please let me have you, only for me.
Let me be the one that accompany you, to walk down the road through all the good and bad times.
Let me be the one that stand beside you and catch you when you fall.
Let me be the one that fulfill all your dreams.

I know, I might not be the one that good enough to stand with you now.
But, will you patiently wait for me ?
It will take some time, but I promise I'll be the one that worth to stand by your side.

The thought of losing you, a nightmare that haunt me.
Keep me sleepless at night.
Forgive me for loving you too much.
Forgive me for being selfish to keep you only for myself.


If one day, you're no longer with me.
If one day, you found someone that you love more than me.
I'll try my best to let you go, but she won't love you enough like I do.


I love you.
More than you might know.

Its hurt

The most scary part of loving someone is not the heartbreak.

Its knowing that its too hard to stand back on our own feet again without them by our side as they take part of our world away when they leave.